Morning, make a trip to RH and Dora will call me once the result is out...
Gosh....
The waiting time is torturing!!!
While making my trip back to mum's place, I cant help dont think of the result.
So worry that Dora cant get through my line or in case I cant help the hp ring, I keep holding my phone on my hand.
The call only come in around 12.45pm...
The HCG level increase to 500 le....
Phew....
What a relief!!!!
Next appointment will be on 14 Sept 2010, 4pm.
Now think back, what's a long and tiring process I have went through...
I'm so PROUD of myself to have come so far. enduring all the jabs all these while.
I have overcome the odds just to have my little ones in me now...
All my efforts paid off....
Thank you...
To all my sistas doing IVF,
Only ppl went through understand how we feel, I went through and I feels for you.
It's definitely not an easy process.
jia you...
Never give up....
Stay positive and one day you will success....
Total investment: $50.50
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 1:37 PM

Extracted information from Dumex website:
Healthy eating during pregnancy is as much about which foods to avoid as which foods to eat. Some food may harm your baby as well as making you ill, so food safety needs to be a priority. Now that you’re pregnant, you should really leave the following foods out of your diet:
• Undercooked or raw eggs or foods likely to be made with them, (including home-made mousses, ice cream and mayonnaise, all of which may be made with raw eggs). Eggs should be cooked until hard.
• Undercooked or very rare meat and fish – there should be no pink bits left (even if that’s the way you usually like it!).
• Raw fish or meat in dishes like sushi or steak tartare, and smoked salmon or oysters
• Unpasteurised milk, cheese or yoghurt
• Soft cheeses like brie, camembert, ricotta, or blue veined cheeses (ordinary cheddar cheese or cottage cheese is fine, as long as they are pasteurised – check the label!).
• Pâté or liver – these can have excessive amounts of vitamin A which can harm your baby.
• Some prepared foods such as potato salad or coleslaw can sometimes contain high levels of listeria.
• Check that any ready meals or reheated foods are piping hot all the way through before you eat them.
• Take care at barbecues where meat is often allowed to rest for a period of time before serving.
• Swordfish, marlin and shark. These fish can contain potentially unsafe levels of naturally-occurring mercury which can harm your baby’s developing nervous system. Tuna also contains mercury, so limit the amount you eat to up to four medium-size cans (140g drained weight, per can) OR two fresh steaks (up to 170g raw weight, per steak) a week.
• Peanuts – It is recommended that women should avoid eating peanuts during pregnancy and breastfeeding, especially if there is a family history of allergies such as asthma, eczema or hayfever.
• Alcohol – excessive alcohol intake has been associated with many foetal problems, and even moderate alcohol consumption may effect the development of your baby’s brain.
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 1:10 PM

Dora or Michelle was not around when I reached so another nurse help me to register and draw blood. Forget to see what is her name...
The nurse asked me: "Did you test at home?"
Me: Yes...Nurse: Positive?
Me: Ya....
Nurse: Good...Me: But ppl said though tested positive but can still be -ve result for blood?
Nurse: Yes... Is the line very dark or fade?
Me: Fade... But I used the digital one to test also...
Nurse: Oh... Dont need to worry, blood test result more accurate.
Me: *Grghhhh*.... Okie.... Shall wait for the result later, see you later...
After drawing the blood, left RH to have breakfast cause my appointment with Dr Loh is 10.45am.
This 3 hours can said is the most horrible period to pass...
Worry....Anxious....Panic....
Scare...
Alot of what if appear in my mind.....
Haiz...
But can only stay calm... Nothing can be done already...
Dora called me at 10.30am ask me where I am? Can come back le...
But never review the result to me...
We were late when we went back to RH...Haha...
Reached RH at 11.20am.
Got a good 'scolding' from Dora that we need to wait for 3 more patients before our turn cause we are late...Whaha....Then Michelle asked me to take my weight and blood test, then she whisper to me...
Weight: 43.5kg
Blood pressure: 110/70
Michelle: From now on, got to be careful le...
Me: *Give a puzzle look at her*Michelle: You know what I mean? Got to take care ok?
Her words brightened me up.... Suddenly the mind like got jam cannot think properly...
So which mean Im preggies?
Shortly after, Sau Lee called me...Im the next patient...
Haha... Dont even have to wait for 3 more patients....
Dr Loh never tell me good or bad result....
Just ask me, " Still got insert?"Then she counting at her calendar...
I asked, "What is the result?"Dr Loh: Oh.... HCG level 132.2
Me: So.... is positive?
Dr Loh: Yes, pregnant..... within the range
Me: Is the result consider good?Dr Loh: Still manage to be in the range but slightly on the low end... Stable level is 200.
Should be singleton... Unlikely to be triplet or twins.
Me: Suddenly lost my mind...Dr Loh: But it's okie... I need you to come back on next Monday for another blood test to make sure it's growing well.
Me: If Monday result no good?
Dr Loh: Then it will consider as early miscarriage.Me: Oh.... *Lost of words*
Yes... I'm happy...
My darling embryos make it...
In another point also start to worry on monday blood test...
What if......Phew.....
Dr Loh prescribed some medicine for me to take back...
Panadol for my back pain and frequent headaches
For constipation.... This really work so amazing...
Duphaston - Oral support....Total Investment: $306.30/-
Scanning appointment: 14 Sept 2010, 4pm
My little darling....
Jia you... Jia you...
Dont give up...
Hang on there....
We are almost there...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 11:18 PM

DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 1:08 PM

My naughty hubby ran in to the toilet waiting to see the test result, when he see Im not testing he looked so disappointed....
Whaha...
But actually is done le... Inside my pocket...
Haha....
Quickly snatch from me...
He said he wanted to witness himself...
Suddenly I heard him singing...
Yippee Yaya Yippee Yippee Ya....
Just like a small boy...
Phew....Result still the same as the 1st time testing...
Tml is the BT day...
8.30am - Blood Test
10.45am - Seeing Dr Loh
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 12:49 PM

Early in the morning, I used up the last test kit we bought yest...
3rd time testing...
Gosh....The line shown are even more fade than yest....
Sob sob....
End up, today shopping hubby said go buy another one to test...
This time buy Clearblue digital one, same as the 1st time I bought myself one..
Haha...
Hubby getting more and more eager..
Hubby nowaday very funny...
At night before going to bed, he will sing good night song to xiao lau lau and xiao susan...
So cute....
Babies...
Can you hear and feel it??
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 10:34 PM

Hubby said if really preggies, even the cheapest test kit also can test out the result.Ok lo so decided to buy this.
Went back home at night, did the first test.....
This is the result...Left line on the left is the reference line
Right line on the right is the indication...
The line seem to be so light...
Make me start to worry again...
Will it be false alarm??
End up we fight over it, who say want to buy cheap test kit one??
Whaha....
My little darlings....
Don't play trick with mummy wo....
Jia you yeah...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 11:11 PM

Day 14 since ET...
2nd day since tested positive myself....
Now got to wait patiently for 3 more days for blood test at RH....
Finally, we see some lights in our life now...
Suddenly feel that all the hardships I went through is worthwhile...
Irregardless is xiao lau lau or xiao susan, you will be my bao bei forever.
We went through so much just to have you.
I'm really looking forward to our journey ahead, no matter how tough it will be.
My darling little ones....
Hold on there....
Jia you...
We are almost there already!!!
Daddy got to work double hard now cause mummy not working anymore...
You got to be guai guai okie....
Daddy and mummy LOVE you!!
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 1:32 PM

Extracted from BabyHopes
When used properly, and at the right time, home pregnancy tests are very accurate. In fact, is is believed that home pregnancy tests may be as much as 99% accurate when they show a positive result. Having said that, there are some important factors to think about when considering exactly how accurate home pregnancy tests are.
It helps to understand a little bit about how pregnancy occurs, and about how home pregnancy tests work in order to understand how accurate they are. Home pregnancy tests check for the presence of a particular hormone known as human Chorionic Gonadotropin, or hCG as it is called for short. Some home pregnancy tests are more sensitive than others. That is, they will detect a lower presence of hCG than the less sensitive tests will. The most sensitive of the home pregnancy tests will detect hCG at around 25 mIU/ml, whereas the least sensitive home pregnancy tests will not detect hCG levels until they get to be 250 mIU/ml or more.
When an egg becomes fertilized, a woman’s body does not begin to produce hCG right away. In fact, it is usually between 7 and 10 days after a woman ovulates that the fertilized egg will implant in the uterus. This is the time that the woman’s body will start to produce hCG. Within 1-2 days of implantation, there is typically enough hCG in the woman’s body for the most sensitive of the home pregnancy tests to give a positive result. If you use a less sensitive test, and if it is used too early in the pregnancy, it may give you a false negative result because there just isn’t enough of a concentration of hCG yet for the test to be able to register it.
To get the most accurate results from a home pregnancy test, you will typically want to not use the test until you have actually missed your period. At that point, even the least sensitive tests will generally be able to detect the pregnancy accurately.
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 3:37 PM

Day 11 since ET....
Just now, I was walking at IMM...
Walk past Guardian and Watson, went in and out a few times. Everytime I step in, a lady when approach me ask me what I'm looking for.
Feel so shy...
Muhaha....
My heart tell me BUY BUY BUY!!!
Buy back and test....
Then I wont be in dilemma states but I'm so scare after so many times of failure...
Phew...
Finally got the courage to grab one from guardian and pay, then faster faster head home. When I reach home, my heart beats so fast.
I wanted to know the result but I'm so scared!!!
OMG...
Not yet try my heart already beating so fast...
What if....
Not pregnant?
I dont know whether I can accept the facts anot...
All these questions keep floating in my mind while I'm having lunch.
Finish eating, secretly went into my room and read all the instructions.
Keep telling myself, this is the fact already...
Just chong leh...
If it's -ve then just have a good cry...
Say is always easy one....
After pee....
Waiting for the hourglass to turn....
Turn and turn and turn....
SO LONG ONE....
My hands shivering...
Legs go jellies....
Heart at my mouth...
Still turning....
Grgh....
Put the test kit inside my pocket run into the room, when I took out and I saw PREGNANT.
OMG...
I cant believe it....
The hourglass still turning...
Looking patiently and puzzle at the test kit, why still turning not yet stopped.
Then it show 1-2....
Which mean is app 1-2 weeks pregnant....
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Can you see it??
I'm PREGNANT!!!
I'm PREGNANT!!!
I'm PREGNANT!!!
I'm not dreaming, the kit indicated PREGNANT!!!
But still must wait for Friday blood test then confirm guarantee chop....
My little darling...
Hold on there...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 1:54 PM

Yest just did the last pregnyl jab....
Now will be the waiting time till next Friday blood test....
Phew....
Mixed feelings I have....
My dear little ones....
Jia you wo....
A few more days to go...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 10:41 PM

Day 7 since the transfer of embryos.
This morning, went for the 3rd pregnyl 2000IU jab at RH.
Don't know is it I'm used to the jab. Or because Michelle is getting more skillful or maybe she talk to me about other things so I didn't think of the jab pain.
Last jab will be this Sat then follow by next week "D" day.
Today got reprimanded by Dora and Michelle...
I understand their good kind...
Haiz....
But what can I do?
They asked me about Drayden's HFMD, are we staying together now?
Dora : Thought I told you cannot stay together? Why now still stay together?
Me : Before I know, they already shifted in. What can I do? The house dont belong to me?
Dora : You know the dangers you will be facing now? You cant afford to catch any diseases now, your immunse system is weaker than usual now. You have put in so much efforts le, dont let all your efforts goes down the drain. You got to do something?
Me : What I can do? Haiz...
Dora : You better dont let the boy come near you and touch you. If he touch you better go and wash your hands and feets with soap. Dont share food with him, make sure his saliva dont touch your foods.
Me : Orh.... Understand....
Dora : Best is keep away from him as far as possible, better be safe than sorry. You also dont want all your efforts to go down the drain.
Me : I understand, I will try...
Dora : Not try is MUST DO...
Me : -_-
I have been through so much, now is the waiting game.
I also dont wish anything to go wrong now...
Phew....
The most difficult time is now...
2 weeks of waiting...
Everyday, I'm worrying....
So many things to think of... 101 things I can think of and worry...
Dont know how the little ones doing now?
Are they clinging on?
Why I got not symptoms? Is this normal?
What will be the result?
But I got no one to talk to...
Babies, mummy is trying my best to protect you, trying to be positive and happy...
You too got to jia you wo...
Mummy and daddy love you....
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 3:01 PM

This morning, just consulted Dora on HFMD.
Just now came back home saw Wangting and drayden at home....
Which mean Drayden confirmed got HFMD....
They already shifted in....
How?
Should I shift out else endanger myself and babies to the disease.
Hubby didnt say anything.
What can I do?
Not becausse I'm selfish....
I wish to be selfish also to protect my little one...
Guess every mummy will do all their best to protect their little one.
I have done so much le and gone through so much pain, anything goes wrong I will go siao one...
Haiz....
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 10:23 PM

This morning decided to call up Dora and ask her a few things since I didnt get a call from the embryologist on last Sat. Dora mention no freezing for the remaining embryos, all of them are not response well so no point freezing them.
Phew....
Suddenly feel so sad...
All discarded...
All of them are discarded....
I'm left with nothing!!!
Only the 3 little ones in me now...
So sad.....
Haiz....
Also find out from her about the intake of eggs, I have been eating 3-4eggs everyday to counter the OHSS. But look like I dont have any symptoms at all.
I can stop taking the eggs but milk and water to be continue.
Same time also ask her about the HFMD, Drayden seem to got the disease which mean he will be staying or coming over to my house. Find out from Dora whether is it safe for me.
She consulted Dr Loh...
Dr Loh want us to separate cannot be staying together...
Very dangerous....
Grghhs...
How to??
Why I seem to have endless things to worry about??
** Baby, how are you together?**
Mummy hope you are growing fine, remember to stay strong and cling on.
Mummy love you all....
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 2:38 PM

After ET, Day 4...
Feeling normal, no symptoms nor side effect from ET nor the jab.
Still manage to make my way to NEA for an interview scheduled at 12pm.
Baby, Mummy hope you are growing well...
Jia you wo...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 2:35 PM

After ET Day3
Don't have any much side effect le...
Is my little ones growing well?
You all got to jia you, hold on and cling on to mummy ok...
Mummy working very hard...
Drinking plenty of water and milk everyday...
Eating 4 eggs white everyday...
We jia you together ok?
Please dont disappoint mummy and daddy.
Just now went to RH Family Clinic for 2nd Pregnyl 2000IU jab...
At first, Im so scare cause it's so painful jab but the nurse thst help me to jab is very professional.
Not very pain!!!
Total investment : $21.40 (for jab)
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 6:37 PM

DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 12:51 PM

Friday, 13th
IVF Day 33
Embryos Transfer Day, D3!!!
Didnt really sleep well last night, been thinking about the embryos transfer procedure the whole night.
Something to look forward to??
Hmmm...
I also dont know...
Early in the morning, we reached RH around 7.30am...
My heart went wild on the way there....
Alot of thing in my mind....
Alot of what if....
I was given a jab by Dora, Pregnyl 2000IU jab, damn painful...
Still got 3 more jabs to go...
On 15 August - 2nd jab
18 August - 3rd jab
21 - 4th and last jab
After which, proceeded to Level 7 Day surgery...
I have been looking very positive...
When the embryologist, Yin Yin, told me only 3 surviving embryos left and the grade arent very good, reacting very slow.
By today should have 8 cells but 2 of the have 6 cells the other one got 7 cells.
My hearts sink to the bottom, tears start to roll down my cheek.
I feel so lost and helpless...
Why??
The rest of the embryos reacting very very slow might not be able to freeze them which mean I have nothing left.
If this time dont success, I got to start all over again.
While waiting for Dr Loh to come, I keep praying...
When Dr Loh personally tell me the news, I knew it's the fact le...
She suggest to have all the 3 embryos transfer, chances are higher.
Thinking myself...
I only have 3 of them, my bao bei you all got to jia you wo...
I did what I should do and can do le, now left you all got to cling on and hold on there...
Hope you all dont disappoint me!!!
** Sob Sob**
Given Progesterone insert for 2 weeks...
Progesterone -
* Helps create a fertile, warm environment in the womb & promotes the survival of the fertilized egg through healthy implantation.
* Strengthens & maintains the secretory endometrium which sustains the embryo throughout pregnancy.
* Prevents the premature shedding of the secretory
endometrium (menstruation).
Total investment:
Insurance for 3 embryos : $889.44
Medical : $2735.10
BT on 27 August 2010
**Jia you**
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 6:05 PM

Updated me on the result...
Yest retreived 19 embryos
16 embryos are fertilised
Only 11 embryos can be used.
Shortly, after her call, Dora called me and update me again.
Embryo transfer will be on Friday, 8.30am
Need to reach by 7.30am....
Erm....
How many embryos to put back?
1 xiao lau lau, 1 xiao susan??
Haha...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 2:22 PM

Reached RH at around 7.40am...
Haha... Guess Im the first patient today....
Today will be doing Embryo retrieval!!!
Didnt slept well last night...
Mind keep thinking about the procedure for today...
Worry + Scared + Nervous + Anxious
All sorts of feelings!!
Though the whole process only take about 5-10 miuntes, but the waiting time is the most torture.
The nurses are very friendly and patient with me.
Keep asking me whether Im cold?
I need anything?
Don't need to worry...
Still can joke with me....
Haha...
One of the most funny one is the sedation they said give me some champagne...
Muhaha...
Really very fast...
When I wake up, everything is over...
I'm glad after the procedures I dont have any side effects only feeling abit tired.
Total number of embryos retreived: 19
12 from the right side
7 from the left side
The next most important day is Friday!!
(tentatively which is D3)
Embryo Transfer!!
Tml, RH will call me and tell me how many embryos are fertilised.
Hopefully got good news!!!
Total Investment for today: $6267.15
Now Im thinking to put in 2 or 3 embryos??
Twin or triplet??
Whaha....
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 10:36 PM

Finally is the last jab....
Phew....
S/C Ovidrel 250mcg
Just had the last jab at RH Family Medicine Clinic, the auspicious timing this time is 9pm....
Haha....
And the nurse there are very puncture with the timing...
9pm sharp then he jabbed for me..
Yes, is a male nurse.
Not shy leh...
The jab is on my right tummy!!!
Total investment for the practical and injection fees: $21.40
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 10:52 PM

Blood test appointment : 8.30am
Dr Loh appointment : 10.30am
After the blood test, hubby and I went to Bukit Purmei Blk 109 for Lor mee...
Whaha...
Hubby have been saying wanted to eat the Lor mee there so we went, after our breakfast we went to Mount Faber...
Didnt alight from the car because it was drizzling...
Headed back to RH after that...
Waiting time was short, I'm the next patient shortly after I reached.
Blood test result: Estradiol (E2) - 11447 pmol/L
Dr Loh said good...
Phew...
From E2 result, she knew the medicine is taking its effect on me.
But E2 result slight higher so she want me to take 4 eggs, drink 2.5lit of water and milk everyday...
Gosh...
My jaw almost dropped..I don't like to drink milk and water!!!
IT'S A MUST DO!!!
Else the water retention will go to the lung then I will need to be warded.
OMG....
This is the chocolate milk given by Dr Loh.Lucky is chocolate one...
Since back home, hubby have been reminding to drink water, water and water....
Haha....
He just cooked 2 hard boiled egg at the weird time...
Almost 12 and we are eating eggs in the kitchen...
Like thief like that, scare people know...
Muhaha...
Tonight is the last night I need to jab myself...
Keep encouraging myself...
Almost there...
Hang on....
Finally tonight is the last night..
Tml night need to head down to RH at 8.50pm for S/C Ovidrel 250mcg.
Time for injection: 9pm
Monday, 9 August, will be a rest day...
Need to take 4 tablets of Azihiromycin 1gm after dinner to prepare myself for Tuesday.
Total investment for today: $420
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 11:58 PM

Tml will be seeing Dr Loh for review and same time going to do E2 blood test.
I'm feeling so LOST as the days are nearer...
Super mixed feelings!!
Hoping everything will be over soon but before it's over......
Still have the most painful jab to take....
The day surgery....
The deposit day....
The confirm +/- day....
Phew....
It will be another roller coaster week to go through....
I'm so drained all these days...
So tired until I dont feel like doing anything... Wana to go away for a holiday to relax my mind.
Even sleeping time I also can think of the needles, medicines and bathing...
Haha...
Why bathing?
Cause after bathing I need to jab the 2 medicines, I cant imagine I actually did it for 25 days already. Now I see my tummy I feel so upset cause of all the holes and blue blacks, it's hurt lo especially the blue black.
I'm such a brave mummy to be!!!
Actually, I'm not so brave....
If I'm brave, I won't be crying every night when taking the jabs.
I'm so scared and helpless but who can help me??
Perhaps no one know the emotions I'm going through now. I got no one to talk to cause no one know about all these procedures I'm going through. That makes me so emotional upset when things just get the ways I want it to be.
Just like the medical appointment tml, very rarely hubby can accompany me go for appointment, I'm always alone at RH but I never blame him cause he need to work. Happen tml is his off day so he can go with me but he said he want to left me there and go dim sum with in law. Be it, he said it jokingly but I take it so seriously.
Im so upset and annoy.
Thinking why should I go through all these when he dont appreciate me at all.
Grrghh.....
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 2:01 PM

Ultrasound scan showed everything are good...
Bad news:
I need to continue the jab till Friday before I see Dr Loh again on this sat for blood test.
When I see her calculating the dose, I knew the days are not over yet....
Phew....
I got phobia with the jab...
I took me so long to jab tonight..
I get so panic when the jab dont get in...
I felt so scared and helpless...
I cant dont jab else all the efforts wasted..
The more eager I wana to jab in, the more fear I am.
Gosh...
I cant do anything, only can bite my teeths and try over and over again.
Total investment : $510
Jia you Jia you...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 11:56 PM

I have jabbed for 22 days, tonight jab was the most horrible.
I got a shock myself after I jabbed Puregon, pull out the syringe, the blood flow out also...
Then left a SUPER BIG Blue Black on my left tummy now.
I also dont know what!!!
Hopefully tonight will be the last day to jab....
Tml will be going back to RH for review, please pray for me....
I need alot of courage to continue!!!
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 11:50 PM

Guess, the "D" day is approaching very soon....
Happy yet nervous....
Excited yet worry....
Tonight 2 jabs can consider successfully cause I never cry this time...
If you have seen me recently, you will notice my eyes are rather sore nowadays, all thanks to the jabs....
Also have been feeling quite bloated recently, think because of the jabs...
Phew....
Lucky, Im not working now else I dont know how to answer for my absent in work and laziness...
Whaha...
Jia you....
A little sacrifice is sometime worth for the effort...

DaDDY & MuMMy





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