DaDDY & MuMMy
Can you feel the sadness Im feeling now?
Happily went to see Dr Loh for review...
But it's just another sad news for me...
She mentioned "My body is not ready for this cycle"
Today scanning was a fast one...
After which she told me I need to stop this cycle cause degenerate corpus luted exist and this only happen in 1% of the women population.
My heart sank to the bottom....
Why Im the 1% unlucky one??
Why arent things going right for me recently??
In normal cases, it should have gone off with the menses but for my case it's not. The lining shape look funny now.... And the follicles still reacted to the injection and medicine I took and grew to 47mm. It should not be the case in D7, either the follicles are filled with fluid now were left over from the previous cycle and not yet recover or they were new follicles from this cycle. Chances of from this cycle is very low... Not to take the risk, Dr Loh suggested that I took the pregnancy test to confirm im not pregnant so that I can take Gynera tab to so call remove them.
Gynera tab need to take continuously for 21 days before I see her again next month for a scan again.
Meantime, Im not suppose to exercise, carry heavy stuff cause all these will cause injury to the uterus and uterine tubes. Then will need to do surgery to correct them..
It's all waiting now......
What is Gynera?
Happily went to see Dr Loh for review...
But it's just another sad news for me...
She mentioned "My body is not ready for this cycle"
Today scanning was a fast one...
After which she told me I need to stop this cycle cause degenerate corpus luted exist and this only happen in 1% of the women population.
My heart sank to the bottom....
Why Im the 1% unlucky one??
Why arent things going right for me recently??
In normal cases, it should have gone off with the menses but for my case it's not. The lining shape look funny now.... And the follicles still reacted to the injection and medicine I took and grew to 47mm. It should not be the case in D7, either the follicles are filled with fluid now were left over from the previous cycle and not yet recover or they were new follicles from this cycle. Chances of from this cycle is very low... Not to take the risk, Dr Loh suggested that I took the pregnancy test to confirm im not pregnant so that I can take Gynera tab to so call remove them.
Gynera tab need to take continuously for 21 days before I see her again next month for a scan again.
Meantime, Im not suppose to exercise, carry heavy stuff cause all these will cause injury to the uterus and uterine tubes. Then will need to do surgery to correct them..
It's all waiting now......
What is Gynera?
- For Hormonal Contraception
- 0.075mg gestodene and 0.03mg ethinylestradiol
- 21 white sugar coated tablets to be taken daily for 21 consecutive days
- menses normally starts on day 2-3 after the last tablet
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 6:28 PM
Today got to start the injection for 3 days..
Gosh...
Don't know how I did it the previous round, not sure whether I will be able to do it again tonight.
Now I see needle also got phobia already...
HOW!!!!!
Sometime thought of giving up...
Why need to go through all these tortures??
Why made my body eat so many difference kinds of medicines and taking injections???
WHY????
The answer is so simple....
For our little one....
26 Oct 09 - 75 units of Puregon plus Clomiphene 50mg
27 Oct 09 - 50 units of Puregon plus Clomiphene 50mg
28 Oct 09 - 50 units of Puregon plus Clomiphene 50mg
29 Oct 09 - Review
Gosh...
Don't know how I did it the previous round, not sure whether I will be able to do it again tonight.
Now I see needle also got phobia already...
HOW!!!!!
Sometime thought of giving up...
Why need to go through all these tortures??
Why made my body eat so many difference kinds of medicines and taking injections???
WHY????
The answer is so simple....
For our little one....
26 Oct 09 - 75 units of Puregon plus Clomiphene 50mg
27 Oct 09 - 50 units of Puregon plus Clomiphene 50mg
28 Oct 09 - 50 units of Puregon plus Clomiphene 50mg
29 Oct 09 - Review
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 6:22 PM
23 Oct 2009....
A day I used to look forward to....
But no more....
Medical appointment with Dr Loh again...
I told her Im so sad this time failed. She too didn't expect this cycle will fail...
She ask me dont be dishearten and give SO IUI a 2nd try, I agreed. Since Im already all out le, just that need to repeat the whole cycle again. I told her I dont point too much hopes, Im so sad this time will fail again.
She used medicine (Clomiphene 50mg) and Puregon jab for this time.
Will start the consume of Clomiphene tml all the way till next Thurs 29 Oct, when I go back to review again. I will only start Puregon jab on Mon 26 Oct with 75 unit, Tue 27 Oct 50 unit and Wed 28 Oct 50 unit.
Im prescribe with Obmin tab too to correct my low iron problem.
(Take 1 tab every morning, taken with or after food)
Expected IUI will be on either 2 or 3 Nov...
Phew...
Jia you....
A day I used to look forward to....
But no more....
Medical appointment with Dr Loh again...
I told her Im so sad this time failed. She too didn't expect this cycle will fail...
She ask me dont be dishearten and give SO IUI a 2nd try, I agreed. Since Im already all out le, just that need to repeat the whole cycle again. I told her I dont point too much hopes, Im so sad this time will fail again.
She used medicine (Clomiphene 50mg) and Puregon jab for this time.
Will start the consume of Clomiphene tml all the way till next Thurs 29 Oct, when I go back to review again. I will only start Puregon jab on Mon 26 Oct with 75 unit, Tue 27 Oct 50 unit and Wed 28 Oct 50 unit.
Im prescribe with Obmin tab too to correct my low iron problem.
(Take 1 tab every morning, taken with or after food)
Expected IUI will be on either 2 or 3 Nov...
Phew...
Jia you....
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 6:46 PM
Im feeling extremely sad today... Because of all the unhappy news mount up to today sadness....
First, I didnt get to offer to cross over to MDES cause Im not deployable.
Although I anticipate that I will not be offer but still feel sad.
Fine...
Expected...
Second, Im not eligible for the 1 more pay increment for my deg cert.
Sadness suddenly change to anger when I knew Im not eligible for the 1 point pay increment. WHY??
1. Im leaving the force..
2. 3 year ranking no good... How to be good when Im leaving the force?
The only criteria I met is that the deg cert is from NTU.
Now Im finding the new aim and motivation to motivate myself go work, dont see any hopes and light. Now work so hard also no used... This year ranking confirm bottom one cause Im leaving next year already = dont need to have good ranking.
Hai.... Stupid management!!
Im got even more sadden when I knew my menses come, suddenly lost the only fighting spirit to be happy. Have been waiting eagerly for the arrival of Friday for my blood test and medical check up, tears drop...... cause I knew i failed the SO IUI process. All the endurance went down the drain... Perhaps I pinned too high hopes so I fall down even more harder when its fail.
Sob Sob...
I tried to hold back my tears but every time I think of it, tears just drop by itself.
Suddenly feel so exhausted, dont wish to move, dont feel like doing anything...
First, I didnt get to offer to cross over to MDES cause Im not deployable.
Although I anticipate that I will not be offer but still feel sad.
Fine...
Expected...
Second, Im not eligible for the 1 more pay increment for my deg cert.
Sadness suddenly change to anger when I knew Im not eligible for the 1 point pay increment. WHY??
1. Im leaving the force..
2. 3 year ranking no good... How to be good when Im leaving the force?
The only criteria I met is that the deg cert is from NTU.
Now Im finding the new aim and motivation to motivate myself go work, dont see any hopes and light. Now work so hard also no used... This year ranking confirm bottom one cause Im leaving next year already = dont need to have good ranking.
Hai.... Stupid management!!
Im got even more sadden when I knew my menses come, suddenly lost the only fighting spirit to be happy. Have been waiting eagerly for the arrival of Friday for my blood test and medical check up, tears drop...... cause I knew i failed the SO IUI process. All the endurance went down the drain... Perhaps I pinned too high hopes so I fall down even more harder when its fail.
Sob Sob...
I tried to hold back my tears but every time I think of it, tears just drop by itself.
Suddenly feel so exhausted, dont wish to move, dont feel like doing anything...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 11:02 PM
After all the injections and testing, today is the day where the Y sperm going to meet the egg...
9 Oct 2009, 11.30am
We arrived RH just in time or to be exact, we are late!!
Whaha... Hubby quickly drop me first and he go and park his car.
Reaching the Women clinic, the nurse asked me to take a seat and wait for my turn. The feeling is horrible.... Im so scare, I keep telling myself I reaching the point got to endure.
Suddenly, I heard the nurse calling my name...
Heart beating in double speed faster....
I proceed to the procedure room and ask to lay down, they asked my name and NRIC no and hubby name and NRIC no at least 3 to 4 times to confirm we are the correct person... Whaha... Later the wrong Y sperm go and find my egg...
I cant said it's not pain, the pain still bearable. The nurse trying to distract me, asking me later go where, today working not?? Haha... Whole process is less than 10min and im to rest for 30min before allowing to go home. Were given 1 day mc.....
I was prescribe with Utrogestan (progesterone) 100mg for 2weeks.
The next D day will be 23 Oct 2009 (Friday)...
2pm for Blood test...
4.30pm to see Dr Loh....
Think 23 Oct will also be the day to confirm whether SO IUI is successful anot.
Im keeping my fingers and toes cross....
Please pray harder....
SO IUI whole process....
29 Sept 2009 (Day3 of menses) - 6 Oct 2009
Daily inject of Puregon onto tummy
29 Sept 09 - 1st Jab (75units)
Damn scare, 1st attempt....
Manage to make it....
Phew!!!
30 Sept 09 - 2nd Jab (75units)
The Puregon pen got jam, end up I pull up and down trying to inject the medicine in.
1 Oct 09 - 3rd Jab (75units)
Got phobie now, so scare the pen got jam again.
And true enough it got jam...
2 Oct 2009 - Review by Dr Loh....
4th Jab (100units)
Did a scan and the eggs not response will to the medicine so Dr Loh increase the dose to 100units.
Brought up the issue to Dr Loh the pen got jam for day 2 and 3. She got Dora to change a new pen for me, same time given the letter to bring the medicine oversea cause hubby and myself going to Ho Chi Minh over the weekend.
3 Oct 2009 (Sat) - 5th Jab (100units)
Arrived at HCM city...
4 Oct 2009 (Sun) - 6th Jab (100units)
5 Oct 2009 (Mon) - Review by Dr Loh
7th Jab (50units)
Oh yeah...
The eggs are growing...
Haha... So the doses are decrease now to 50units
6 Oct 2009 (Tue) - 8th Jab (50units)
7 Oct 2009 (Wed) - Review by Dr Loh
Hmm.... 1 of the eggs are already 15 in diameter and LH surge also shown. When Dr Loh said dont need to jab anymore, Im so happy.... Every night I so terrify when need to jab myself.
But happy for just that few minutes only....
She mentioned at night 11.30pm ask me come back to A and E dept to take dunno what jab to mature the eggs...
11.30pm!!! Faint.... Puzzled.... why cant I jab myself???
7 Oct 2009 (Wed), 11.30pm - Raffles Hospital A and E Dept
Reached RH around 11.10pm but was told by the nurse not the time yet go to be exactly 11.30pm then can jab.
Ok fine...
I hate waiting time....
The A and E dept is damn cold man....
Finally it's 11.30pm, the nurse ask me lay down. Well the bed was so cold.
I ask her what jab is that so special, why cant I jab myself?? No response...
She only mention not pain one... Very fast over le...
Ask me rest for a while before going off...
I though what so wonderful this jab is only a jab why need to rest before can go off.
When she jab on my buttom, I can immediately feel the numbness pain going down to my foot.
Damn pain lo...
Cant even sit up after the jab, rest for a few minutes then I get up and walk out.
Wow... Now think of that moments, it's still so vivid on my mind.
9 Oct 2009, 11.30am
We arrived RH just in time or to be exact, we are late!!
Whaha... Hubby quickly drop me first and he go and park his car.
Reaching the Women clinic, the nurse asked me to take a seat and wait for my turn. The feeling is horrible.... Im so scare, I keep telling myself I reaching the point got to endure.
Suddenly, I heard the nurse calling my name...
Heart beating in double speed faster....
I proceed to the procedure room and ask to lay down, they asked my name and NRIC no and hubby name and NRIC no at least 3 to 4 times to confirm we are the correct person... Whaha... Later the wrong Y sperm go and find my egg...
I cant said it's not pain, the pain still bearable. The nurse trying to distract me, asking me later go where, today working not?? Haha... Whole process is less than 10min and im to rest for 30min before allowing to go home. Were given 1 day mc.....
I was prescribe with Utrogestan (progesterone) 100mg for 2weeks.
The next D day will be 23 Oct 2009 (Friday)...
2pm for Blood test...
4.30pm to see Dr Loh....
Think 23 Oct will also be the day to confirm whether SO IUI is successful anot.
Im keeping my fingers and toes cross....
Please pray harder....
SO IUI whole process....
29 Sept 2009 (Day3 of menses) - 6 Oct 2009
Daily inject of Puregon onto tummy
29 Sept 09 - 1st Jab (75units)
Damn scare, 1st attempt....
Manage to make it....
Phew!!!
30 Sept 09 - 2nd Jab (75units)
The Puregon pen got jam, end up I pull up and down trying to inject the medicine in.
1 Oct 09 - 3rd Jab (75units)
Got phobie now, so scare the pen got jam again.
And true enough it got jam...
2 Oct 2009 - Review by Dr Loh....
4th Jab (100units)
Did a scan and the eggs not response will to the medicine so Dr Loh increase the dose to 100units.
Brought up the issue to Dr Loh the pen got jam for day 2 and 3. She got Dora to change a new pen for me, same time given the letter to bring the medicine oversea cause hubby and myself going to Ho Chi Minh over the weekend.
3 Oct 2009 (Sat) - 5th Jab (100units)
Arrived at HCM city...
4 Oct 2009 (Sun) - 6th Jab (100units)
5 Oct 2009 (Mon) - Review by Dr Loh
7th Jab (50units)
Oh yeah...
The eggs are growing...
Haha... So the doses are decrease now to 50units
6 Oct 2009 (Tue) - 8th Jab (50units)
7 Oct 2009 (Wed) - Review by Dr Loh
Hmm.... 1 of the eggs are already 15 in diameter and LH surge also shown. When Dr Loh said dont need to jab anymore, Im so happy.... Every night I so terrify when need to jab myself.
But happy for just that few minutes only....
She mentioned at night 11.30pm ask me come back to A and E dept to take dunno what jab to mature the eggs...
11.30pm!!! Faint.... Puzzled.... why cant I jab myself???
7 Oct 2009 (Wed), 11.30pm - Raffles Hospital A and E Dept
Reached RH around 11.10pm but was told by the nurse not the time yet go to be exactly 11.30pm then can jab.
Ok fine...
I hate waiting time....
The A and E dept is damn cold man....
Finally it's 11.30pm, the nurse ask me lay down. Well the bed was so cold.
I ask her what jab is that so special, why cant I jab myself?? No response...
She only mention not pain one... Very fast over le...
Ask me rest for a while before going off...
I though what so wonderful this jab is only a jab why need to rest before can go off.
When she jab on my buttom, I can immediately feel the numbness pain going down to my foot.
Damn pain lo...
Cant even sit up after the jab, rest for a few minutes then I get up and walk out.
Wow... Now think of that moments, it's still so vivid on my mind.
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 5:24 PM
Wooo... Wooo...
I have not been writing for quite a long time already.
Simply just busy, busy, busy.....
Since started the IUI last week, I have been feeling so lousy.
Extreme lousy now!!!
Last week till this week is a week of injections, drawing of blood, visiting hospital every alternate day.
Gosh, now I see needle I'm so scare man.
Yesterday when Dr Loh said I can dont need to jab myself already Im so damn happy man but.... she not yet finish her last sentence.....
Tonight 11.30pm come for the jab in the A&E dept....
I was like huh??!!!
A&E dept??
11.30pm???
Full of questions marks.....
No specific details was given...
Last night, went back to A & E for an injection at 11.30pm.
Why 11.30pm I also dont know lo and the nurse said have to be jab only at 11.30pm SHARP!!! The jab is damn painful I can feel the dumbness immediately on my feet when the jab go in. Now my backside so pain...
Sob Sob...
Last night also didnt sleep well...
Now I'm so sleepy.... Super duper sleepy!!!
Though can catch a nap in the office but someone is in my office to use the PC now.
Dont feel like working at all...
Help Help Help.....
I got the endure!!!
The treatment is coming to the end...
Jia you...
I have not been writing for quite a long time already.
Simply just busy, busy, busy.....
Since started the IUI last week, I have been feeling so lousy.
Extreme lousy now!!!
Last week till this week is a week of injections, drawing of blood, visiting hospital every alternate day.
Gosh, now I see needle I'm so scare man.
Yesterday when Dr Loh said I can dont need to jab myself already Im so damn happy man but.... she not yet finish her last sentence.....
Tonight 11.30pm come for the jab in the A&E dept....
I was like huh??!!!
A&E dept??
11.30pm???
Full of questions marks.....
No specific details was given...
Last night, went back to A & E for an injection at 11.30pm.
Why 11.30pm I also dont know lo and the nurse said have to be jab only at 11.30pm SHARP!!! The jab is damn painful I can feel the dumbness immediately on my feet when the jab go in. Now my backside so pain...
Sob Sob...
Last night also didnt sleep well...
Now I'm so sleepy.... Super duper sleepy!!!
Though can catch a nap in the office but someone is in my office to use the PC now.
Dont feel like working at all...
Help Help Help.....
I got the endure!!!
The treatment is coming to the end...
Jia you...
DaDDy & MuMMy PeN Off @ 7:37 AM